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so for the past 2 hours ive been talking to ryan. thats right, ryan novak. wow. he says that he's missed me a lot. he's been thinking about me a lot for a while. he says he's been looking for me for months. wow. i dont even know what to say. he says that he regrets how things ended too, but understands kinda. pretty much feeling the same way as me. i just cant believe he still cares. he called at 330 am, my parents were mad. the phone went dead at 5 am, he called back, oh man, they arent happy. so ive been putting off getting a cell phone for a bit now, but i think next saturday ill get one. not just for him, long distance is an issue. ill be able to talk to manda a lot more too which is important. i just cant believe he still cares. makes me re-evaluate my self perceived position in other peoples lives. i guess im not as low on the totum pole as i thought. wow. im still in shock. i guess thats all i have to say.