Life's like an hour glass glued to the table
Sometimes i wonder if i moved to sweden if i'd be much happier. Probably. The pioneer valley is really getting to me. Sure i fucking love hanging out with the mcgrath sisters and having crazy times with them. But other than that everything around here just stresses me out. I was hoping i would get to be friends with eoin this summer and we would hang out a lot. I miss him. He doesnt want to be my friend, and it's really hard for me to accept. That really stresses me out. What also stresses me out is the fact that he makes me feel guilty for hanging out with anyone of the male species and getting inebriated in anyway. I would understand if he was my friend and was looking out for me and stuff, but he isn't even my friend, and when i call him to say hi he says he has to go and when i ask him to hang out he says no (that rhymed, sorry). What else am i supposed to do then? sit on my ass at home by myself? i'm just trying to make the best of this depressing summer. and if one more person insinuates that jeff lynch and i have, or ever will be together in ANY way, i may scream. I'm just trying to have fun. but i really just wish i could lounge around at eoins and watch movies and eat sugar free popcicles. but i guess that wont happen. i just hate how he and all his friends make me out to be such a horrible bitch, when in reality i am a depressing loser with no friends lol. i really have nothing else to say besides i hate the pioneer valley drama, and i wish it would all end. maybe i'll just hide myself away in pelham and never see the light of day again, except when going to work of course. thank god for money. im saving up this summer. i dont know what for. but the way things are going, it might all be going towards a one way plane ticket to my homeland (aka sweden). ;) BYyyyyyyyyyyyyyye