This time next year...
well it is officially the year 2005, and what was i doing as the ball dropped? was i drinking? no. partying? no. having sex? no. having any crazy fun of any kind? nope. i was playing spider solitaire. thats what i did on new years eve lol. sometimes i should just kill myself. it's not like i didn't have options of doing cool things, i even went to chels' for a bit, but i just didn't feel like drinking, or partying or socializing at all for that matter. yeah im a loser. what can ya do? i just hope i am ready to party hearty when we have our mville reunion in ny on sunday. i don't know. i just feel like im not really part of this world anymore. im luck stuck in between college and highschool (metaphorically, not actually--thank god). because of this i spend new years alone. i don't know where eoin is. probably having fun like hes supposed to. what am i supposed to be doing? who knows. gosh im a fucking dork. but it's ok. i don't have anything else to say, except my dad and stepmom are piss ass drunk downstairs and im soberly chillin on my comp. whether it was my choice or not, i have hit a low point lol. whatever. back to partying on sunday with my girls!!!!! i love them, even though kat HATES me for not coming to her party :( but what can i say? im a fucking loser anyway so it wouldn't have mattered. im going to bed. I can say without hesitation that this has been the worst new years ever. i just wish i wanted to party, but i don't. oh well, im over it. i'll write more when i get back from ny on like tuesday. not like anyone gives a fucking shit. adios
~Emma
*New Year's Eve was as boring as heaven
I watched flies fuck on channel 11
There was no one to kiss, there was nothing to drink
Except some old rotten milk someone left in the sink*
~Emma
*New Year's Eve was as boring as heaven
I watched flies fuck on channel 11
There was no one to kiss, there was nothing to drink
Except some old rotten milk someone left in the sink*