melodrama
so. bouncing around a bit on a surely fleeting high from just running about 7 miles.
ive been brooding and moping and wallowing most of the afternoon. crashing into nap zone from a 3 cup caffeine surge this morning. breaking into tears twice. both inconvient occaisions. resorting to even (gasp) eating a dark chocolate lindt truffle.
being sad during rainy weather is somewhat called for, and as miserable as it is to cry and lie wide eyed on ones bed for much longer than is appropriate, it is still justified when its pouring out.
however when it is sunny, 79 degrees, with cumulous clouds and a crisp breeze swirling outside. being sad and self pitying seems just pathetic. not getting out of bed at 7am seems a waste of precious time. and staying in to self medicate is nonsensical. so i went running for an hour. and im going out for drinks. and working on committing myself to something other than a semi long lost love.
im so sick of trying to plan the future.
jesus christ.
i think secretly its my favorite thing to melancholy and melodramatic.
definitly.
ok.
im really not that sad.
i think today im just scared of everything that's about to happen and i'm homesick for many things. one in particular.
ive been brooding and moping and wallowing most of the afternoon. crashing into nap zone from a 3 cup caffeine surge this morning. breaking into tears twice. both inconvient occaisions. resorting to even (gasp) eating a dark chocolate lindt truffle.
being sad during rainy weather is somewhat called for, and as miserable as it is to cry and lie wide eyed on ones bed for much longer than is appropriate, it is still justified when its pouring out.
however when it is sunny, 79 degrees, with cumulous clouds and a crisp breeze swirling outside. being sad and self pitying seems just pathetic. not getting out of bed at 7am seems a waste of precious time. and staying in to self medicate is nonsensical. so i went running for an hour. and im going out for drinks. and working on committing myself to something other than a semi long lost love.
im so sick of trying to plan the future.
jesus christ.
i think secretly its my favorite thing to melancholy and melodramatic.
definitly.
ok.
im really not that sad.
i think today im just scared of everything that's about to happen and i'm homesick for many things. one in particular.