SPAM IS DELICIOUS
I was reminded that I never made a spam post, so HERE WE GO. Spam whatever, whenever, if you feel like it. Consider it a free-for-all RP, or a confessional box, or a place to ask me whatever you want. Go wild, I don't mind.
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I regret not doing more with my father, I regret it each and every day, which I SHOULD PROBABLY GET OVER IT, because it's been so long... Two and a half years, now.
But I regret never going fishing with him, and not asking more questions about his past, and not spending more time with him when I was an asshole teenager. I regret ever yelling at him, and ever getting mad when he did something for my own good.
More than anything, I regret not visiting his last day, because I was so drained. I didn't know it was his last, but I should have gone. Maybe he would have lasted longer if I had, because he always had a bit more life in him when I was there.
I guess I've been blaming myself for that for the last two years. I'm better now, but every once and awhile, I think about it, and it hurts. Every once and awhile, I bring out his army issue knife that he had in WWII and I run it between my fingers, trying to remember stories he never told, because when I got to be about 13, I stopped asking, because I was FUCKING STUPID. I wish I had had more time, but I can't change it now, so all I can do is stop blaming myself and spend every moment I can with the people that matter to me.
Besides, I'm sure he'd smack me upside the head if he saw me so down for things I couldn't control.
And then he'd take me for ice cream.
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like I have rarely felt it....
but man I am so jealous at the concept of noon liking Chi too
UGH HI SELF /punches
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goddamnit I have never felt more in love with a person
D:
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o7
One day! I believe I'll be it...
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I'll just wait forever.
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I am Jack's inferno of emotions.
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