its funny...

[weakerthanyou]

i still sit on the futon and look around my apartment like i just moved in. i still cant believe that im actually out. total freedom. its bizzare. i dont check in to anyone. it makes me smile. i cant believe i ever worried that someone was wondering where i was every second of the day. never again. i can smoke, drink and hang out with my friends and not worry about what someone is going to think. i dont feel guilty about not being a student. cause im a student of life baby! i read and listen and learn everyday. everyday is like a new adventure. and i still get depressed, but who dosent. and its not for any particular reason anymore, its just that i have clinical depression. but i figured out how to combat it. you have to instill faith in people. no one person can cut it. it didnt work before and it wont ever. its friends and the fact that i have the most understanding, loving parents ever. its great to make them all proud, but i realize they will be proud regardless.

this new inspiration i have has come as a result of my own actions. i think i finally have my priorities in order. being alone dosent feel quite the same. its cause im never alone, i always have someone who i can count on. and they were always there. regardless if i have a love in my life, i always have love in my life.

funny thing.