Mid-semester Ennui
I am so cranky/sad it's not even funny.
I'm falling back into the "grass is always greener" mentality. I miss being able to come home and vegetate after a long day of work. I miss watching TV and sleeping in until 11. I miss socializing without feeling guilty about the work I've left at home.
I miss real autumn. I miss going into the barn and hearing my horses nicker for me. I miss cuddling with my cat. I miss my parents, oddly enough.
I miss physical contact. I haven't had a real, long, meaningful, good hug in months. I'm a ball of tension.
I know that academia is where I belong. I just wonder sometimes what the purpose of belonging really is.
(This is all because I have a book review due Monday, of course.)
I'm falling back into the "grass is always greener" mentality. I miss being able to come home and vegetate after a long day of work. I miss watching TV and sleeping in until 11. I miss socializing without feeling guilty about the work I've left at home.
I miss real autumn. I miss going into the barn and hearing my horses nicker for me. I miss cuddling with my cat. I miss my parents, oddly enough.
I miss physical contact. I haven't had a real, long, meaningful, good hug in months. I'm a ball of tension.
I know that academia is where I belong. I just wonder sometimes what the purpose of belonging really is.
(This is all because I have a book review due Monday, of course.)