layer by layer
so.. hello. haha, im in a good mood, was pretty much all day. actually ive been in a really good mood this whole week, maybe the pills are working. *yay* (still have setbacks, thinking the pills arent working) but ive been pretty good. having fun. catching up lol.
went to a party friday. Amanda got drunk and it was so funny. mixing her drinks.. not good. playing beer pong and talking to a guy whos drunk. that was interestig. since she mixed, she threw up and i drove her home. Jay came with me. Hes really nice.. like really nice. it was nice talking to someone about stuff. anywho Amanda threw up out my window and i stopped the car in the middle of the road. shes like im sorry. me and Jay went to dropp her off at her house. Then he came with me to dropp off Caty at her house. then by accident i hit a car. made a dent, not that big, little?, but it was dark! lol. Jays like "go go go" it was so funny, i got so scared but i forgot how to drive for like 5 seconds. then drove away. lucky the alarm didnt go off. Jays like "didnt you see the car?" NO! lol, it came out of no where and the streets were narrow! nothing happened to my car, that was funny. hahaha. he was telling me that the bumper was made out of steel, both of us making up stuff how strong the bumper was. that was so funny. Found out that he goes to St. Johns and all the people were in college. I was like uh okay. lol. i was so tired tho. i had fun, he was really nice. i told him about norbert and much of an asshole he is. he said that it was fucked up that hes not going to prom with me. he was mad that someone would say they would go but then break up and not go. dont think about me taking him, right.... you ruined everything? sure thing.
saturday, party too. hahah, god. sooo not jealous! lol (inside joke) no durrr. lol
party tomorrow, out east... i think? lol back saturday.... morn-noon. get it? hahah. who knows..
yesterday was the last day you can get prom tickets. it was upsetting and it hurt. but what can i do when someone ruins everything you planned? didnt go to my fashion show and i didnt bother finishing the dress. its still there.. finished most of it. but i didnt want to wear it. i think im over it though.. the pain part that it hurts to know im not wearing it. i look at it and i tell myself, finish it. ppl ask me if im gonan finish the dress, like i have prom. i said im not going to prom, but i didnt cry. they asked why i said because ppl suck.
that was the end of it. it hurts knowing im not going, it hurts because he ruined it. hes thinking i had enough time to get someone else. fuck you man, think about it. plan.. my plan! me and you, you messed it up. self-centered asshole, only thinking about yourself. you you you you. that wont get you anywhere in life.
gonna go, out, maybe shopping.. lol who knows. all i know my clothes is somewhat loose. i dropped down to 113 pounds. i got skinny, and its upseting. but cool. haha im not anorexic. i eat, i dont throw up. i dont eat a lot, i get full quick, but im getting my weight up slowly. wondering if my dress will fit.
later
-xox- Have you noticed, how much Ive changed? How everything is getting back to normal? How happy Im finally becoming?
went to a party friday. Amanda got drunk and it was so funny. mixing her drinks.. not good. playing beer pong and talking to a guy whos drunk. that was interestig. since she mixed, she threw up and i drove her home. Jay came with me. Hes really nice.. like really nice. it was nice talking to someone about stuff. anywho Amanda threw up out my window and i stopped the car in the middle of the road. shes like im sorry. me and Jay went to dropp her off at her house. Then he came with me to dropp off Caty at her house. then by accident i hit a car. made a dent, not that big, little?, but it was dark! lol. Jays like "go go go" it was so funny, i got so scared but i forgot how to drive for like 5 seconds. then drove away. lucky the alarm didnt go off. Jays like "didnt you see the car?" NO! lol, it came out of no where and the streets were narrow! nothing happened to my car, that was funny. hahaha. he was telling me that the bumper was made out of steel, both of us making up stuff how strong the bumper was. that was so funny. Found out that he goes to St. Johns and all the people were in college. I was like uh okay. lol. i was so tired tho. i had fun, he was really nice. i told him about norbert and much of an asshole he is. he said that it was fucked up that hes not going to prom with me. he was mad that someone would say they would go but then break up and not go. dont think about me taking him, right.... you ruined everything? sure thing.
saturday, party too. hahah, god. sooo not jealous! lol (inside joke) no durrr. lol
party tomorrow, out east... i think? lol back saturday.... morn-noon. get it? hahah. who knows..
yesterday was the last day you can get prom tickets. it was upsetting and it hurt. but what can i do when someone ruins everything you planned? didnt go to my fashion show and i didnt bother finishing the dress. its still there.. finished most of it. but i didnt want to wear it. i think im over it though.. the pain part that it hurts to know im not wearing it. i look at it and i tell myself, finish it. ppl ask me if im gonan finish the dress, like i have prom. i said im not going to prom, but i didnt cry. they asked why i said because ppl suck.
that was the end of it. it hurts knowing im not going, it hurts because he ruined it. hes thinking i had enough time to get someone else. fuck you man, think about it. plan.. my plan! me and you, you messed it up. self-centered asshole, only thinking about yourself. you you you you. that wont get you anywhere in life.
gonna go, out, maybe shopping.. lol who knows. all i know my clothes is somewhat loose. i dropped down to 113 pounds. i got skinny, and its upseting. but cool. haha im not anorexic. i eat, i dont throw up. i dont eat a lot, i get full quick, but im getting my weight up slowly. wondering if my dress will fit.
later
-xox- Have you noticed, how much Ive changed? How everything is getting back to normal? How happy Im finally becoming?