please
even if it started out bad, it came out to be really fun, i was actually happy for like 10 minutes. i loved every minute of it, because i knew it was the pookie i first met on that wednesday night. i knew it was the real pookie. i wish it was always like that. not yelling, no additude, nothing like that. i loved every single minute of it. i loved how he was with me. i just wish he had a little bit more patience with me, i know its a lot. i know it wont happen because i just want to keep talking to him. because i miss talking to him. i know me misses talking to me too. he knows im trying and that means a lot to me. knowing that he knows im trying really hard. i love how hes being really nice to me. even if its nothing to him, it means the world to me. when hes like this, i actually think to myself that "wow i can do this". but then somehow it gets ruined and i dont want it too. i dont want it to die, not now, not right now, not today. i love this and i want it to be like this untill it goes more then friends. i know its a long shot. but maybe it will happen soon. im praying, i am. because i want tonight, to be every single day until my wish comes true. i loved it. i felt happy, i felt like a girl who has a HUGE crush on their best friend. hoping their best friend feels the same. wishing their best friend feels the same. i feel like he does, but it depends on him if he wants the best friend/me.
i know pookie is mad about what i wrote.. i know i pushed him away, i wish he keeps in mind what else i wrote. i hope he knows how fragile i am, how everything affects me in a huge way. i just wish he treats me the same way he did tonight online. how nice and loving he was. how he was talking to me like i was actually someone he wanted. i loved that feeling. for the first time, i was laughing for a good reason. i know im writting this and it sounds stupid, but its not to me. im happy and i hope it doesnt get ruined. im praying it doesnt. please dont ruin it.
it means a lot to me.
-xox- In my heart, you're the only one in my world. Take some time, just some time to know me, and let me show you how much you mean to me. All this love is waiting here just for you.
i know pookie is mad about what i wrote.. i know i pushed him away, i wish he keeps in mind what else i wrote. i hope he knows how fragile i am, how everything affects me in a huge way. i just wish he treats me the same way he did tonight online. how nice and loving he was. how he was talking to me like i was actually someone he wanted. i loved that feeling. for the first time, i was laughing for a good reason. i know im writting this and it sounds stupid, but its not to me. im happy and i hope it doesnt get ruined. im praying it doesnt. please dont ruin it.
it means a lot to me.
-xox- In my heart, you're the only one in my world. Take some time, just some time to know me, and let me show you how much you mean to me. All this love is waiting here just for you.