talk to myself again... all alone... on my own
i want to write something good and read it at The Garden on wednesday but really... when have i ever been talented with words enough to actually speak in complete sentences?
plus i'm not as fabulous as the little guy that writes about sex with his girlfriend... and from what we've all heard i'm not sure anyone is ;]
i am super bored
i bought new pajamas
i should be studying for a test
i don't know.
you ever think like, you should be doing more with your life or you should try to see meaning in the things you do? recently i just don't really feel like anything i do is important. i hope i'm not sounding conceited because thats not at all what i mean. i know there are things more important than me. its just like i can't seem to do anything right anymore or maybe ever.
perfect example: i'm 21, still in school, still trying to figure out what i'm supposed to do with the rest of my life, still all alone, no discernable talents, still not moving in any sort of direction. its like this static state that i can't get rid of. but maybe it is my own fault? maybe i'm not taking chances that i should be? maybe i'm not seizing the day? maybe i need to grow up and just settle like everyone else. maybe we are all on destined paths and maybe i can't change anything about anything.
maybe i'm always going to be behind
i'm always going to be unattractive
i'm always going to be looking for things i don't even understand
i'm always going to be wanting things i'll never have
maybe thats what i'm supposed to do
why can't anyone tell me what i'm supposed to do?
i wish i could say that i'm not lost but wandering around isn't doing me any good either.
i wish i could put my heart into something and actually believe i'll follow through
i guess i lost my chance a long time ago
its so strange but i feel like i've been here before
plus i'm not as fabulous as the little guy that writes about sex with his girlfriend... and from what we've all heard i'm not sure anyone is ;]
i am super bored
i bought new pajamas
i should be studying for a test
i don't know.
you ever think like, you should be doing more with your life or you should try to see meaning in the things you do? recently i just don't really feel like anything i do is important. i hope i'm not sounding conceited because thats not at all what i mean. i know there are things more important than me. its just like i can't seem to do anything right anymore or maybe ever.
perfect example: i'm 21, still in school, still trying to figure out what i'm supposed to do with the rest of my life, still all alone, no discernable talents, still not moving in any sort of direction. its like this static state that i can't get rid of. but maybe it is my own fault? maybe i'm not taking chances that i should be? maybe i'm not seizing the day? maybe i need to grow up and just settle like everyone else. maybe we are all on destined paths and maybe i can't change anything about anything.
maybe i'm always going to be behind
i'm always going to be unattractive
i'm always going to be looking for things i don't even understand
i'm always going to be wanting things i'll never have
maybe thats what i'm supposed to do
why can't anyone tell me what i'm supposed to do?
i wish i could say that i'm not lost but wandering around isn't doing me any good either.
i wish i could put my heart into something and actually believe i'll follow through
i guess i lost my chance a long time ago
its so strange but i feel like i've been here before