Change ???
Lately I am struggling about how do I looked like. I mean, I’m not a girl who always check her appearance once a minute, but I think my hormones takes the lead and I want to looked pretty
It’s kinda, in a twisted way, scary. I mean, hello, I’m a 17 years old girl who has a very limited experience on dating someone who wants to be known at least on my class. Pheuw! I used to be this tomboy girl who hung out with boy’s XXL t-shirt and a pair of baggy jeans and a sneaker and a hat and a backpack. But nowadays, I’m trying to looked more feminism. You know, with my size shirt and trousers which , you know, trending in my town. I only take my backpack to school but sometimes I use sling bag if I had only 2 classes that day.
I’m annoying every contact on my phone /except my parents/ with 4 unimportant messages a day so they know that I’m exist. Especially @JaeHana3. I kept texting her with something like ‘Bii….’ , ‘_Bii_’ , ‘|Bii|’ , something like that to make her at least realize that ‘Hello, there is this person called A-chan who once you knew but today she is like a total dork’ alive.
Geez. I kept bugging her and through this, I want to say sorry *bows*
Back to the topic. I’m still this otaku girl who loves Japan’s stuff but I slowly change myself. What I mean is, I want to be friend with a lot of people. I want to have a boyfriend or at least, I want to have someone close to me.
Seems like whenever I’m talking, nobody cares about it. I have to make a fool of myself so people would look at me. I want to be noticed.
I changed my style and became more humorous, but every time I do that, I feel like it’s not my self. Should I really change myself so I can be noticed by someone? (⌣́_⌣̀)
It’s kinda, in a twisted way, scary. I mean, hello, I’m a 17 years old girl who has a very limited experience on dating someone who wants to be known at least on my class. Pheuw! I used to be this tomboy girl who hung out with boy’s XXL t-shirt and a pair of baggy jeans and a sneaker and a hat and a backpack. But nowadays, I’m trying to looked more feminism. You know, with my size shirt and trousers which , you know, trending in my town. I only take my backpack to school but sometimes I use sling bag if I had only 2 classes that day.
I’m annoying every contact on my phone /except my parents/ with 4 unimportant messages a day so they know that I’m exist. Especially @JaeHana3. I kept texting her with something like ‘Bii….’ , ‘_Bii_’ , ‘|Bii|’ , something like that to make her at least realize that ‘Hello, there is this person called A-chan who once you knew but today she is like a total dork’ alive.
Geez. I kept bugging her and through this, I want to say sorry *bows*
Back to the topic. I’m still this otaku girl who loves Japan’s stuff but I slowly change myself. What I mean is, I want to be friend with a lot of people. I want to have a boyfriend or at least, I want to have someone close to me.
Seems like whenever I’m talking, nobody cares about it. I have to make a fool of myself so people would look at me. I want to be noticed.
I changed my style and became more humorous, but every time I do that, I feel like it’s not my self. Should I really change myself so I can be noticed by someone? (⌣́_⌣̀)