ben:
i dont know what to say to you. i dont know why im even writing this, but i kind of feel like its my time to reply. youve felt something for me that i havent for so long, over a year prolly. i want to be your best friend. that is all. im sorry that i cant push feelings, or push others away that i have for other person. i know that that isnt even what you want. you want it to come naturally. we had our little thing last year that was enjoyable, until the realization of having a boyfriend kicked me in the head. ouch. but yea thats not what this is about, this is about having a great friendship, or at least that is what it used to be, but lately i can just feel like its a faded half ass attempt at a friendship. and now that i cant go to aarons which is where you basiacally live now, we are fucked. but tonight i had a good time getting out of the house with two people that i couldnt have asked anything else from, or chose another of. and as i sit here and listen to the bright eyes cd you burnt for me and eat girl scout cookies, i think about the great last year and being with each other every day, finding amazement from the simplest of activities. the heart place with the carved symbols in the tree, the place where we met every day after classes, just like instinct. when i took too much sleeping pill at school and you watched out for me as i lay under the computer desk. thank you for those memories, and it kills me to know we cant ever relive them, no it will never be the same. be my friend?