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i really wish i had super powers. or not even to that extent, but just so i am not so indecissive, and so i could figure things out. im really lost all the time, sitting, standing, short, tall, fat, skinny, purple, red. no matter.
andrew got me "reinventing axl rose" for my birthday. went to the hatd show tonight, was with tyler and andrew mostly. was enjoyable. talked to derek, he'd been drinking most likely. what the fuck is up with that. i dont know why my brother goes to the bathroom with his friend.
you know, im sorry to you two who i may possibly hurt in the past week, or any time before that, of for fucks sake, any time in the future. you should know who you are. and you know you'll read this. it's been a pretty rough week, for you too most likely. i want to talk about something, but i dont want to fuck things up...
so stop reading here...
my heart seems heavier than usual as of late, and i dont know whats wrong with me. i think about incidents that have happened recently, the only thing i can come up with is chris. we're constantly arguing, but i think that's for a reason. i miss him a lot. how could i not after a year, one month, three weeks and five days? i cant sleep anymore, cant concentrate, and at times i cant be happy. i know that last one is normal, but its most of the time, when i get to really thinking about things. i dont know what to do, because eventually, hes going to move on, find someone else that doesnt do drugs and smoke and constantly fuck it up. i know we broke up for those reasons and more, but..it's difficult. oh fuckin well.
im hoping we're still on for drinking sunday everyone. gives me something to look forward to.
andrew got me "reinventing axl rose" for my birthday. went to the hatd show tonight, was with tyler and andrew mostly. was enjoyable. talked to derek, he'd been drinking most likely. what the fuck is up with that. i dont know why my brother goes to the bathroom with his friend.
you know, im sorry to you two who i may possibly hurt in the past week, or any time before that, of for fucks sake, any time in the future. you should know who you are. and you know you'll read this. it's been a pretty rough week, for you too most likely. i want to talk about something, but i dont want to fuck things up...
so stop reading here...
my heart seems heavier than usual as of late, and i dont know whats wrong with me. i think about incidents that have happened recently, the only thing i can come up with is chris. we're constantly arguing, but i think that's for a reason. i miss him a lot. how could i not after a year, one month, three weeks and five days? i cant sleep anymore, cant concentrate, and at times i cant be happy. i know that last one is normal, but its most of the time, when i get to really thinking about things. i dont know what to do, because eventually, hes going to move on, find someone else that doesnt do drugs and smoke and constantly fuck it up. i know we broke up for those reasons and more, but..it's difficult. oh fuckin well.
im hoping we're still on for drinking sunday everyone. gives me something to look forward to.