somrthing empty

[we_have_no_name]

i want to call rachel but i need sleep.

i sometimes feel like everything is ok and then sometimes i feel like nothing is right. tonight i feel the former.

i found out (and was most likely the last) that aric and vickie are pregnant and aric is being a huge prick about it. it saddens me quite a bit. i know where aric is coming from. i feel bad for vickie.

i feel like i've been misrepresented through shawn. i think that a lot of people think of me as being a lot like shawn these days and that bothers me. it happens a lot. like the time i spent away from friends when i was with taylor being "domestic", they thought bad of me because i wasn't there to defend myself. people talk and usually it isn't good and/or positive. thus people i think are alright seen to find me less than.....

it's only a matter of time before i crumble.

misty and john are an item. that just weirds me out.

weddings. everyone is getting married this summer. something about that depresses me, but i'm not sure why. it's not like i want to get married. maybe i just want something like that.

sometimes i feel like i've failed katherine through my selfishness.

rachel asked me last night if she thinks i'm over taylor or will ever be over her. ......

kind of blue
kind of blue
kind of blue
kind of blue
kind of blue
kind of blue
kind of blue
kind of blue
kind of blue
kind of blue

i am not
but she is

lambs.