confusion
i just got back from fall break. today is my baby brother's 15th birthday. :) i had a good break with everyone so that's good.
i'm stressing about graduation right now and it's not even happening for another year. but the process starts earlier than you'd think. i've been dealing with a lot with school today.
i'm feeling extremely pmsy today and i dont know why because that feeling shouldn't be here right now. i've been pissy all day. i haven't talked to bryan at all because of it. i didn't want to fight. i got irritated easily with kenneth today. trent kinda knew to stay out of my way so that made me happy. but i finally talked to bryan online and i got pissed pretty quickly so i had to just leave.
I have no reason to feel this way really but i have a hard time trusting him when he's out with other guys. he's not like other guys when it comes to flirting and girls. he thinks there should be no flirting if you are taken. and i'm always the one that has to watch the flirting but when he's out with certain people i know what those guys are like and i dont want bryan to act like them. i know he would never do anything to hurt me. we've been together for a year and a half today and he has never even come close to cheating on me. the one time he was unsure of what he wanted he broke up with me to figure it out and he still didnt do anything to hurt me (other than the break up) so i have NO REASON to worry at all. why am i still worried?
it's not all the time. i'm not always worried. i trust him really. but when he tells me he's going out with this one guy (it's one of his BEST FRIENDS) i just dont trust it. i get this uneasy feeling. there are a lot of reasons why too. this guy hit on me the whole time right when me and bryan got together and the second we broke up after like 2 months or so he started lying to me to get me to be with him and not care about bryan anymore. i believed every word he said and i did mess around with him and now bryan looks at that as me cheating because it was one of his best friends. but for all i knew at that time (because it's what the guy was telling me) bryan had no intention of seeing me ever again and had no feelings for me at all. while he was telling me this stuff he was introducing bryan to new girls. this guy can't hold onto a relationship for anything and i have a feeling that he doesn't understand bryan's love for me. that's why it scares me. this guy and i are still good friends and i love him to death as a friend but as my boyfriend's friend...i have some issues. it sucks.
ANY ADVICE????
i'm stressing about graduation right now and it's not even happening for another year. but the process starts earlier than you'd think. i've been dealing with a lot with school today.
i'm feeling extremely pmsy today and i dont know why because that feeling shouldn't be here right now. i've been pissy all day. i haven't talked to bryan at all because of it. i didn't want to fight. i got irritated easily with kenneth today. trent kinda knew to stay out of my way so that made me happy. but i finally talked to bryan online and i got pissed pretty quickly so i had to just leave.
I have no reason to feel this way really but i have a hard time trusting him when he's out with other guys. he's not like other guys when it comes to flirting and girls. he thinks there should be no flirting if you are taken. and i'm always the one that has to watch the flirting but when he's out with certain people i know what those guys are like and i dont want bryan to act like them. i know he would never do anything to hurt me. we've been together for a year and a half today and he has never even come close to cheating on me. the one time he was unsure of what he wanted he broke up with me to figure it out and he still didnt do anything to hurt me (other than the break up) so i have NO REASON to worry at all. why am i still worried?
it's not all the time. i'm not always worried. i trust him really. but when he tells me he's going out with this one guy (it's one of his BEST FRIENDS) i just dont trust it. i get this uneasy feeling. there are a lot of reasons why too. this guy hit on me the whole time right when me and bryan got together and the second we broke up after like 2 months or so he started lying to me to get me to be with him and not care about bryan anymore. i believed every word he said and i did mess around with him and now bryan looks at that as me cheating because it was one of his best friends. but for all i knew at that time (because it's what the guy was telling me) bryan had no intention of seeing me ever again and had no feelings for me at all. while he was telling me this stuff he was introducing bryan to new girls. this guy can't hold onto a relationship for anything and i have a feeling that he doesn't understand bryan's love for me. that's why it scares me. this guy and i are still good friends and i love him to death as a friend but as my boyfriend's friend...i have some issues. it sucks.
ANY ADVICE????