horrible day
today has been one of the worst days of my life. usually i'm just complaining about work but work was actually the best part of today! bryan and his parents got into it big time today and he's living at a friend's house right now because he doesn't want to go home. of course this has me worried and thinking about him constantly.
then after work i got hang out with justin and kyrie a little bit so i can do something and get this bryan stuff off my mind. well i end up getting into it with justin. he pissed me off SOOOO bad. i yelled at him and then i cried and told kyrie i was sorry but i had to leave. she was pissed. so that was fun!
then i come home to talk to my room mate and calm down and what does he do? he tells me that he's not paying rent anymore after he leaves this month and that i may not be able to stay in this apartment...i may have to move to a studio. yeah i'd still be in an apartment but i do not want to live in a studio so i'm pissed. i'm pissed because none of this is my fault and i'm having to deal with all this shit today.
THEN on top of everything else, bryan gets an email from his fuckin ex girlfriend today saying something about i had tried to add her to my msn. i dont even know what her email address is!!! i accidentally found a conversation between the two fo them on his computer (it was right next to pictures of me and him) and i looked at it just to see when it took place and it was a long time ago so i wasn't mad but i told him i found it so he wouldn't think i was trying to snoop around. but i have NO idea how the hell she thinks that i want to add her to my msn. i have no desire to ever speak to her unless it's to cuss her out face to face and tell her to never speak to my boyfriend again. lol....and that's only cuz i'm having a shitty day. normally i really dont give a shit about her.
BASICALLY, i'm having one of the worst days ever. my boyfriend is a mess. i feel like it's my job to hold him together right now but obviously i can't because i'm not there AND because i'm a mess myself. i know what it's like to fight with your parents and i hated how i felt last summer when mom and i were fighting constantly about him. i wouldn't wish that on anyone. this cruise is gonna be the best thing for us i think. he's gonna have to make do without me and without his parents for a while and i'm gonna have to go a few days without even speaking to him and still have good days lol. i have this obsession with talking to him every day...it's gonna be hard. but there's my rant. i'm not happy today and i really wanna get drunk right now and just pass out. but i just took a bunch of ibuprofen so i might get some sleep (head is throbbing).
(Bryan, i love you, you know that. i'll do what i can to help you though i know there isnt' much i CAN do right now. hang in there, those of us who care about you are here and will do what you need us to do. lean on me, that's what i'm here for.)
to my friends who might read this: HELP!!!!!!! ugh
then after work i got hang out with justin and kyrie a little bit so i can do something and get this bryan stuff off my mind. well i end up getting into it with justin. he pissed me off SOOOO bad. i yelled at him and then i cried and told kyrie i was sorry but i had to leave. she was pissed. so that was fun!
then i come home to talk to my room mate and calm down and what does he do? he tells me that he's not paying rent anymore after he leaves this month and that i may not be able to stay in this apartment...i may have to move to a studio. yeah i'd still be in an apartment but i do not want to live in a studio so i'm pissed. i'm pissed because none of this is my fault and i'm having to deal with all this shit today.
THEN on top of everything else, bryan gets an email from his fuckin ex girlfriend today saying something about i had tried to add her to my msn. i dont even know what her email address is!!! i accidentally found a conversation between the two fo them on his computer (it was right next to pictures of me and him) and i looked at it just to see when it took place and it was a long time ago so i wasn't mad but i told him i found it so he wouldn't think i was trying to snoop around. but i have NO idea how the hell she thinks that i want to add her to my msn. i have no desire to ever speak to her unless it's to cuss her out face to face and tell her to never speak to my boyfriend again. lol....and that's only cuz i'm having a shitty day. normally i really dont give a shit about her.
BASICALLY, i'm having one of the worst days ever. my boyfriend is a mess. i feel like it's my job to hold him together right now but obviously i can't because i'm not there AND because i'm a mess myself. i know what it's like to fight with your parents and i hated how i felt last summer when mom and i were fighting constantly about him. i wouldn't wish that on anyone. this cruise is gonna be the best thing for us i think. he's gonna have to make do without me and without his parents for a while and i'm gonna have to go a few days without even speaking to him and still have good days lol. i have this obsession with talking to him every day...it's gonna be hard. but there's my rant. i'm not happy today and i really wanna get drunk right now and just pass out. but i just took a bunch of ibuprofen so i might get some sleep (head is throbbing).
(Bryan, i love you, you know that. i'll do what i can to help you though i know there isnt' much i CAN do right now. hang in there, those of us who care about you are here and will do what you need us to do. lean on me, that's what i'm here for.)
to my friends who might read this: HELP!!!!!!! ugh