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Sometimes I feel like Im living the life that other people deserve. Maybe its my new found lack of caring and fear that allows me to do what I want, moving to Colorado is proof of that.
I have learned to stop fearing the future, and just live for the moment... things never go the way you want or plan them too, people are just to unreliable. Thats the beauty of choice.
Maybe lack of caring isnt the phrase Im looking for, its more like lost without a cause or care. I have no idea what I want to do, where I want to be or whom I want to be around, and since I know I dont want to be here, or need to be here now, Im leaving. Im leaving to find myself in a strange place where I will only know a handful of people. Im leaving the sun, sand and beach for mountains, snow and skiing.
I know this is what other people had planned for themselves, and I know that theyre not going anytime soon. All I have to say is stop being a pussy, pack your shit and do what you want. Dont let anyone hold you back...especially a relationship that everyone knows wont last.
I have learned to stop fearing the future, and just live for the moment... things never go the way you want or plan them too, people are just to unreliable. Thats the beauty of choice.
Maybe lack of caring isnt the phrase Im looking for, its more like lost without a cause or care. I have no idea what I want to do, where I want to be or whom I want to be around, and since I know I dont want to be here, or need to be here now, Im leaving. Im leaving to find myself in a strange place where I will only know a handful of people. Im leaving the sun, sand and beach for mountains, snow and skiing.
I know this is what other people had planned for themselves, and I know that theyre not going anytime soon. All I have to say is stop being a pussy, pack your shit and do what you want. Dont let anyone hold you back...especially a relationship that everyone knows wont last.