the saga of my sad little life,...sigh
do you ever think you have everything figured out and then all of the sudden with a blink of an eye every thing changes. your thoughts, feelings are in such a wound up mess that you dont know your left from your right.for the past week ive only been half way alive wondering if im making the right desicions. for some reason this always happens to me. i think i am so happy and nothing could get better but then it does and not in the ares you were expecting it to. i was so happy with neil, really... moving in and all and was excited. but then last week all of it went to shit! i was so wrapped up with my happiness and what i wanted last week that i totally disregarded him. so what does that mean???? does it mean that i was just making myself think i was happy and not knowing that i truly wasnt, or am i trully happy doing what im doing now out side of him. the past week i have had more fun than ive had in a long time...and i wasnt with him once.