I Scream, You Screamirishgirl1984December 26 2016, 23:31:49 UTC
It’s not that I get mad at my current boyfriend, but there are times I feel like he’s mad at me. It usually happens when he’s frustrated over a medical situation, or he is simply not feeling at all like himself. When that happens, I most definitely feel like I’m in the wrong place at the very wrong moment. Here’s what I mean. . . My ex treated me like crap there towards the end of our marriage and relationship. Nothing seemed to please him whatsoever. It seemed as though I could do nothing right to make him happy. Unfortunately, he assumed that his depression was all my fault-thinkinking that I’d been the root cause of it during the latter part of our marriage. Knowing that he felt like that, we both knew that it may be a good idea to seek counselling. Unfortunately, couple’s counselling wasn’t an option through the counselling center in Jacksonville, Illinois. I was told that I’d also have to open a case with them, that couple’s therapy may be an option later down the road. Then, his actions and words told me I was no longer wanted in his life. More and more, he wouldn’t help me with laundry-not even help me get food when I got hungry. There were also times when I’d be alone for hours to days without even hearing from him. Finally, being told that I’d caused all his issues really hurt. Yes, I wanted out, but only because of the hurt-not because of having other friends, who would help when needed. Sure, I don’t have to deal with that anymore; however, it’s taking a long while to realize that. Ultimately, I’ve got the best boyfriend in the universe, who cares so much. He doesn’t care how long this healing process is going to take me. He is well aware that the pain’s still there, that the holidays are really tough for me right now.
Here’s what I mean. . .
My ex treated me like crap there towards the end of our marriage and relationship. Nothing seemed to please him whatsoever. It seemed as though I could do nothing right to make him happy. Unfortunately, he assumed that his depression was all my fault-thinkinking that I’d been the root cause of it during the latter part of our marriage.
Knowing that he felt like that, we both knew that it may be a good idea to seek counselling. Unfortunately, couple’s counselling wasn’t an option through the counselling center in Jacksonville, Illinois. I was told that I’d also have to open a case with them, that couple’s therapy may be an option later down the road.
Then, his actions and words told me I was no longer wanted in his life. More and more, he wouldn’t help me with laundry-not even help me get food when I got hungry. There were also times when I’d be alone for hours to days without even hearing from him. Finally, being told that I’d caused all his issues really hurt.
Yes, I wanted out, but only because of the hurt-not because of having other friends, who would help when needed.
Sure, I don’t have to deal with that anymore; however, it’s taking a long while to realize that. Ultimately, I’ve got the best boyfriend in the universe, who cares so much. He doesn’t care how long this healing process is going to take me. He is well aware that the pain’s still there, that the holidays are really tough for me right now.
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