Jul 24, 2004 20:12
did nothing today. tom went over allison's and they left an away message on telling me to call. i just read it now. oops i missed hanging out with the crowd. why couldnt they just call? i know allison has my phone number. i cleaned my room. i refolded all the clothes in my drawers. my mom had a cardiac arrest at my sudden burst of clenliness. i cleaned my closet and my desk and my headboard. im still dirty. i had a serious issue of limb trauma today. i stubbed my toes, smashed my fingers into things, and cut my foot on broken glass. i need a pair of slippers.
- my father figure just yelled at me for messing up the dryer. my brother put 2 loads of wet laundry in at once. i wasnt in the basement all day, and he just assumes i was the one that did it. that goes to show you how much faith my family has in me.. or at least my father. -
anyway. i went shopping with my mom yesterday. got some clothes. i need 2 more pairs of pants and 2 skirts. city on monday. i love my mom. my brother is going to college in 2 years. i don't know if i can handle that. as much as i want to deny it. im going to miss him.
all i want is a really close group of friends where everyone just chills with eachother and its all mellow. i want casual sex. i want to french kiss guys without worrying about the consequences. i want it to be okay when i cuddle with you and nothing else is expected. i want to lie on my bed holding you. i want to drown out tears with bad music, and i want sex on the grass and in the rain. i want both the girls and the guys to sleep over on weekdays. i want my mom to be okay with midnight walks around town. i want the street lights.
it makes me want to cry.