random thoughts #5
books
currently on my 14th book after i signed up for mark zuckerberg's 1 book per week challenge. if i added the required readings for my scrum certification next month, i would've gotten more. i just noticed that when i am stressed, the more i read. since it's just the end of february, i would have only read 8 books. i think that's dangerous. i wrote less.
to the unnamed
i am insane. i have been thinking about a certain person for over a year now -- someone i ignored and got away. only 2 people know about this person.
a few nights ago, i had a lucid dream about him. a dream that reflected everything i have done to him almost 10 years ago. the dream's ending felt like a thousand knives stabbing my heart. yes, it was my fault and because of it, i have secretly desired for closure. i wanted to talk to him but i'm not in contact with him anymore. sometimes i just think he's already forgotten about me but it doesn't seem to work.
i don't know for how long will i stay under the shadow feeling of guilt and regret because of a mistake i did a decade ago. i feel he hasn't forgotten about me for making me feel like this.
currently on my 14th book after i signed up for mark zuckerberg's 1 book per week challenge. if i added the required readings for my scrum certification next month, i would've gotten more. i just noticed that when i am stressed, the more i read. since it's just the end of february, i would have only read 8 books. i think that's dangerous. i wrote less.
to the unnamed
i am insane. i have been thinking about a certain person for over a year now -- someone i ignored and got away. only 2 people know about this person.
a few nights ago, i had a lucid dream about him. a dream that reflected everything i have done to him almost 10 years ago. the dream's ending felt like a thousand knives stabbing my heart. yes, it was my fault and because of it, i have secretly desired for closure. i wanted to talk to him but i'm not in contact with him anymore. sometimes i just think he's already forgotten about me but it doesn't seem to work.
i don't know for how long will i stay under the shadow feeling of guilt and regret because of a mistake i did a decade ago. i feel he hasn't forgotten about me for making me feel like this.