put the shotgun to my lips

[waywardali]

i'm afraid i've lost my way, i've forgotten what it's like to sit down and breathe, what it's like to sleep for a good amount of time. i've forgotten so much. i'm stressed beyond comprehension and theres absolutely nothing i can do about it, time will have to continue it's course in order to fix me. How can so much be packed into one little day? so few hours? i believe i shall break soon, there just isn't any time to relax and live, not now.
my goodness.
i haven't felt so overwhelmed in a long time.
breath in.
breath out.
its two o'clock in the morning and i still have a project to finish.
breath in.
breath out.
it's two o'clock in the morning and i miss you.
breath in.
breath in.
hold it.
hold it..........
i'm turning blue, and theres nothing to do about it.