Daddy issues
So, Facebook strikes again. After an incredibly long while my dad seems to want to come back into my life. His other son, my half-brother, hit me up on Facebook today. After some hello and how ya been, we move on to daddy. "Daddy misses you", "Daddy wants to see you", and boy you should bring your kids up so we can all get to know one another.
Wow. The rolling boil of emotions that stirred up! I'm 5 again, and oh the joy! My dad misses me! This is the 5th or 6th time we've done this. Ans the other times I've run up there and tossed my heart in his lap and spent a few weekends "getting to know" my dad. And then I stop calling him, just to see if he will call me. And he never does. Well, not for several years.
And I think about how he will treat my kids. He left me, and that is what it is. But no one, and I mean NO ONE will hurt my kids. Well, I won't let them get hurt because I did something dumb. I wonder if he will love them, and show them that love. If he will be in their life at all. If he will love them for a while, and then disappear. Like he did with me and my brothers.
I don't know what I'm going to do yet. I just needed to write sone stuff out.
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