Apr 19, 2015 23:33
I am trying to voice dictate this log entry, because I have a problem with a trigger finger in my right hand in it is hard to type. A lot of things have been happening in the past several months. A few deaths but some major changes have occurred. Surprisingly, Dragon voice 12 works fine under Linux with wine. It does require some fidgeting to get it to work but it seems to work fairly well.
My kitty, has diabetes. It has been a very long journey into daylight with this experience. I wish I could say this is easy but it has been a very trying time. Trying to regulate insulin has been a real challenge. I am dealing with a biological organism not a binary organism. So I have to adjust the way I do things the thinking more analog than I do digital. It is not on and off. It takes time to regulate this.
It is hard dealing with the death of a loved one, as I remember the 14th anniversary of a very dear friend so many friends have passed before me, that have been so much to me. It's hard to accept some of the losses but I guess that too is part of life.
I feel very overwhelmed dealing with my cats diabetes, but at least I don't feel so very alone. I have people that have been this way before me.
I am also dealing with some homeowner issues as well. The decking in my Arizona room is deteriorated. The steps that I had rebuilt when I moved, is dry rotted so I am having to rebuild everything from scratch. Fortunately again I have some help but still this nags at me as something that needs to be done quickly, before the monsoon season hits.
It is very difficult time of the year as everyone transitions back to their summer homes. And I'm here. There's not a lot of people here and it does get kind of dull and monotonous. Summers are kind of hard because there's really not a lot of activity and no one is around.
One of my goals this summer is to get a little bit more actively involved in Linux because I have neglected that over the last year. There have been so many issues. My summer project will be to create a network file structure server and an LDAP server which will allow me, to have a unified home directory. Instead of being scattered everywhere. So I am hoping that that will help to occupy some time.
I am going on a trip this summer back east with my Mom and I don't know who'll care for my kitty. Dealing with diabetes is no fun especially with someone who has little or no experience but I am praying that God will provide the right person so that I can make this trip with my Mom.
My sister will be coming out to visit with my great niece in a few weeks. It will be good to see her again, I hope we get to do a lot more this time than we have in the past.
My dad seems to be getting further and further distant, as time progresses. It is difficult to watch him deteriorate before my eyes but again there's not much I can do. I am learning that there really isn't a lot that I have control over and I have to trust in God's wisdom and grace to get me through. Fortunately I seem to have survived with my faith intact, and I am thankful.
I seem rather bewildered by the barrage of things life has thrown at me in the past few months. But I am confident with God's wisdom and guidance in prayer that He will prevail in my life. So, anyway there you have it I guess I am done for today.
summer,
diabetes,
kitty