On my mind...
So life lately hasn't been as great as it could be.
Alan and I are still talking and well its yet to become a "thing" which isn't a bad thing at all. I like the way Alan and I are. Sometimes I feel like the guy in this relationship...I don't want any attachments but I want the love...lol...I want my cake and eat it too! He wants to date but I want to keep it like the way it is now.
Justin M...What could I say about him..He's a total guy and acts like an asshole but somehow I'm attracted to a guy like that. I can't help but want to be with him. My mom brought thsi particular issue up about Justin M. She said he was ashamed of me...ASHAMED? First of all, We're just friends with privlages...Second, I make the plans...Third, I choose to hang out at night and not during the day. So do I give him the chance to be ASHAMED? At first I believed my mom's brain washing talk but then I realized that I choose what we do when we hang out and all I want to do is make out and fondle eachother. Is it worng? NO. I have no attachments. But then again, he's never introduced me to his parents, friends, or anyone else he knows. ODD? Who knows? GUYS=assholes.
Anyways. Continuing with my job situation. Working at Disney...Almost done with Old Navy...and well I want another job because making 80 dollars every two weeks doesn't even cover the toilet paper I use to blow my nose. lmao.
Emily was telling me how good I have it with Alan and that I should take advantage of what I have with him and forget about Justin M. all together.
Well I shall go...Alan just called me.
-Allyson
