Confused & Alone....
I DUNNO...
I AM SO LOST...
I have yet to find me...thought I did...but SYKE! lol!
I have a lot of things running through my head...*sigh*
Everyone and everybody has come back into my life...
Guys from three years ago...
I feel like I am being bombarded with stupid situations for no reason...
I started working at Old Navy....Thats fun...nothing what I thought it was going to be...
I finished my last assignment today! Yay! Summer school is over! I start school in two weeks I think!? Who knows! Who cares!
My sister goes back to school tomorrow. Hmmm....*pondering* Yeah...I am so glad that its not me...I dont miss anything about high school...lol...oh man....thats mean but it is so true...I've grown up and I realized that alot of the people I talked to during high school we're only wasting my time...and well there were the few that have stuck around and I am glad that those people are still around. Brittney E. You have suprised me in so many ways. I am so glad You and I still talk. *smiles* Jeffery...awww...my evil minded evil person...lol....I cant wait until you take over the world. Remember I get france and italy when you do!
On to bigger and better things...hmmm...still thinking....ummmmm....
Today I went to my G-ma's house and I got really cool presents...and a really good birthday cake too! I got to see my little cousin. He is six months already! I love him so much....he is too cute to hate! *sigh* He is such a cutie!
Anyways like I said before...I am in a dilema. I am stuck and I cant move foward or back. *tear* I dont know what to do.
I like one guy but I have faith that it will ever become more than a friendship and then one guy comes bac into my life after four months but I haven't spoken to him enough to make a desicion on this situation. Then I have Roberto telling me what I should do and Emily telling me what to do. And like Emily said "no matter what anybody tells you, your still going to make your own desicion."
Its true.
Until I make my desicion....I am stuck.
I cried myself to sleep at night because of this. I have so much fustration. I tried to tell someone but expressing my feelings is harder than I thought. Its hard to open up when you've been hurt. Its hard to believe anything anyone says when promises to you have been broken before. *rolling my eyes*
ANYWAYS.
I dont work until thursday! THANK GOD! My poor feet!
Well I shall be off because its taking me FOREVER and a DAY to update!
GOODBYE,
Allyson
*smiles*....dont why? I shouldn't even be smiling!?