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Wow. So I was just about to update my journal, but instead I ended up reading through all the entries Ive written since Ive come to Cortland and it was really sad. The fact of the matter is I enjoy it here, I feel like I made the right decision, and despite the depression of all my entries, I am NOT suicidal haha. I guess I just get to thinking too much at night and when Im tired and I think too much, I get emotional.
But seriously, I have some of the greatest friends here. And just thinking that Ive hurt them in any way reallly really upsets me. Those of you that really truly know me know that my biggest fear is being mean to people without knowing it. When I get wind that that might be happening, I freak out. I always want to be the person that helps, not the opposite. If Im ever being an asshole, TELL me ASAP and I WILL APOLOGIZE AND STOP.
So how about you TELL ME what Ive been doing thats bothering you because my worst fear is to keep doing it, without recognizing what IT is. Please.
But seriously, I have some of the greatest friends here. And just thinking that Ive hurt them in any way reallly really upsets me. Those of you that really truly know me know that my biggest fear is being mean to people without knowing it. When I get wind that that might be happening, I freak out. I always want to be the person that helps, not the opposite. If Im ever being an asshole, TELL me ASAP and I WILL APOLOGIZE AND STOP.
So how about you TELL ME what Ive been doing thats bothering you because my worst fear is to keep doing it, without recognizing what IT is. Please.