Hello :)

[waygaymindelin]

Well hello world...yes, I am still alive...

Well Im getting to talk to people in my life right now that meant so muchto me in the past its great...I got to talk to my sister...that girl is my dawg man ....i miss her :(

I got to talk to Amanda....man have me and that girl been through some fuckin shit...sitting back thinkin about our friendship and everything we went through together ...it amazing...we were basically eachothers crutches....im happy she is back in my life...I want her to be my best friend again...now that Im not in love with her it will be easier....hahaha....that girl makes me smile :).....

A couple of things I have figured out about myself recently.

Im always under the influence of something...

I go insane when I am sober...im nervous and anxious and I feel like my brain is goin crazy

I keep thinkin tht life isnt good enough yet...im not happy with it

I get sick of people and jobs alot faster now

I have attatchment problems....big time...

I cant get to close..

I want my mommy ...I want a mommy

I just want to go far......far ....far

I wanna live life alot more sober....

I want my drive and motivation back...

I miss the feeling of loving life....