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[wayfarer42]

Might as well update a little seeing as how it's been a while... The interview I mentioned a while ago went pretty good I guess considering I was hired on the spot. I work graveyard now which is fine since I didn't have a life anyway. Shit's easy and people are already impressed, but I feel like I need to improve. Only thing that really sucks about it is that it takes away from what little social life I had left thanks to the off hours I deal with now. I don't really have anyone to talk to anymore and it's really starting to wear on me considering that this job really isn't anything more than something to do. Sure it's letting me buy this or that, but I only really needed a couple things, some of which I could have gotten by now if it wasn't for saving up for FurFright. I don't even know if I can make it to that or not yet. I mean I put in for the time off on my very first day, but a new guy asking for a whole week off after only being there two months... I don't know if it'll happen or not. My coworkers don't seem to think I'll get it off, but the night time manager thinks it should work out fine, but then again it's not up to him.
I don't know, I guess it's just like before when I mentioned the interview, I should be happy I have this but its just making me depressed. As easy as it is I get more and more pissed the longer I'm there either cause of the shit I have to fix or cause my mind start wandering. My diet consists of one decent meal a day and then energy drinks to stay awake and pain killers cause I keep fucking up my foot and ankle. And when I'm at home I just question what the point of it all is. I used to have a goal but no means to get there... now I have the means but no goal...

Only thing I can add other than crap about work is that my dreams are a mess lately and aren't making any sense... This bothers me as well...

FF better work...