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I swear it.
Lastnight, I was lying in my bed with my eyes closed,
waiting for sleep to come to me.
Suddenly, time froze. That's my only explanation for it. Time stopped.
My breathing slowed down to nothing, and one moment I felt my heart beating
-then the next it wasn't.
Now, the time that passed probably wasn't very long in reality.
But to me, it was so long.
So many things flashed through my mind.
"What about the life I was supposed to lead?"
I felt a certain peace, but not the peace that I should when I die.
I shouldn't look back on anything the moment i'm ready to go.
But I did. And so, I know that it most certainly wasn't time for me to die.
It was the oddest thing...that has probably ever occurred in my life.
I literally, in my mind, knew I was dying.
I thought of what I would leave behind. Then and there.
And what would happen to them if I were to die.
This made me think afterwards..and now.
I'm speachless.
(Later....)
Last day of school at St. Martin High was today.
I didn't even look back.
Graduation was lastnight.
I didn't even cry.
However, my mom checked me out, and I turn to leave.
I walk to the car, and see someone parked next to us.
I know exactly who it is at first glance. I want to say goodbye.
But I don't.
I just get in my car, and he walks away.
He looks back, briefly. I had tears in my eyes.
I don't even know him anymore and it pained me to pass up the
oppurtunity to say goodbye and wish him well.
Now that, ladies and gentlemen, was odd.
I wonder if it's possible to measure your life in the tears that are shed when you die.