Well that's how I learned the lesson that everyone's alone.

[wayaway4rmhere]

It appears this is the new place of my weekly update.
This can't be good.

I guess i'll get right down to business.
Silence better not be the response to this one.

I'm sick of the story. My heart literally falls to my stomach and
then proceeds to self-destruct like a ticking bomb when I think about it.
Which is all the time. It's like I'm about to

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[capta1nc0mbover]

I just died inside.
And cried more than i have in the longest time I can remember.

my bit of ramblings

[happilynumbed]

It is lonely when no one recognizes the all of you. What makes it worse is when you try to tell them and it just falls on deaf ears.

Everyday people walk around asking each other "How are you?" in the typical I am only asking out of consideration not because I actually care monotone. It all runs the same. It is as if sincerity has lost its meaning or is just wasted on the hopeless. People piss me off in this way, but then as you said they are after all people. It turns me cynical inside.

I wish this lonely type nature was not true, but I have not seen anything to prove it wrong so far. People don't want to be reminded of these things. They would rather you put on your smiling mask and see a lie. I want to burn my mask and hope for someone to notice the whole of me. Why was no one there for me all of those years stuck at that place? Why are they still not here?

I can at least glimpse how you feel, and I am glad you are venting it.

good night Corinne

your not alone....

[_melissa7]

that is a shit load of emotion.....you will always be attacked with those feelings, sad but true, I'm not at all saying I have figured anything out, but you are just one of millions who have those very exact same feelings, Satan and his legion enjoy your suffering,......why it seems to us that GOD doesn't answer when we feel at our lowest, I don't know.....I do know your not alone......May the Lord break the chains....peace

[anonymous]

So, reading this and listening to you today

[wayaway4rmhere]

You used to listen to me

[anonymous]

arguements get us nowhere.
where are we going?
its getting more upsetting
then it ever has. i guess on
my part.

[wayaway4rmhere]

I don't know.
I thought up a lot of things to say
in response to what you yelled at me
about earlier. But I don't think it would
help at all to continue in that.

I'm not sure what to think.

Sorry I wasn't there at lunch.
My mom came to school to get me to
get my braces off.
I don't know if you would have spoken
to me anyways, but. Just thought
i'd let you know what was up.

This post wasn't supposed to be a personal attack.
On anyone. It was just...emotion. Me letting emotion
out, which is something I haven't been able to do
lately very well. And then I did, and it was upsetting
to some, so I realize. But it's how I felt at that
very moment, and there's nothing I can do about it.

This is how I see it:
I knew you and Amanda, two of the closests people
in this world to me, would read it. And I hoped it
would effect the both of you. And the both of
you had two totally different reactions.

You were pissed.
And she was sorry.

Maybe what I needed was to just get it all out