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I can't believe tomorrow is Christmas Eve. Once again it doesn't even feel like Christmas time. I swear the older I get the less exciting Christmas is & that's depressing. :( I still didn't buy anyone but Anthony any presents. Being unemployed is putting a damper on my gift giving ability. At least everyone is pretty understanding of that.
Nick is an asshole. At least he finally admitted to me that she's pregnant. I talked to him for over an hour on Friday night. I sat, curled up in a ball on Chelsea's floor talking/crying. It was horrible. He still tortures me. He told me everything about Alex & how they broke up. Then he begged me to visit him in work the next day, get my job back, be in his life again, etc. I told him we can never be friends because it hurts too much & I'll always want more from him that he'll never give me. He kept saying that I never know what could happen between us. But, I do know. I know that as long as I am in contact with him my feelings will never go away & my heart will break all over again. So, I'm done. I finally got my money from him yesterday & now I am officially done talking to him.
On to non-Nick related topics: Friday was awkwardddd. Walking through Neshaminy mall I managed to run into Bill with some girl, then I saw Mike Hood with his girlfriend. So random, so uncomfortable. I wanted to crawl under a rock & die. Mostly when I saw Mike. Bill is whatever. But, seeing Mike with his gf was just....weird.
Last night was my aunt's Christmas party. All I have to say is: HOT MESS. YEAH. HAHA.
Nick is an asshole. At least he finally admitted to me that she's pregnant. I talked to him for over an hour on Friday night. I sat, curled up in a ball on Chelsea's floor talking/crying. It was horrible. He still tortures me. He told me everything about Alex & how they broke up. Then he begged me to visit him in work the next day, get my job back, be in his life again, etc. I told him we can never be friends because it hurts too much & I'll always want more from him that he'll never give me. He kept saying that I never know what could happen between us. But, I do know. I know that as long as I am in contact with him my feelings will never go away & my heart will break all over again. So, I'm done. I finally got my money from him yesterday & now I am officially done talking to him.
On to non-Nick related topics: Friday was awkwardddd. Walking through Neshaminy mall I managed to run into Bill with some girl, then I saw Mike Hood with his girlfriend. So random, so uncomfortable. I wanted to crawl under a rock & die. Mostly when I saw Mike. Bill is whatever. But, seeing Mike with his gf was just....weird.
Last night was my aunt's Christmas party. All I have to say is: HOT MESS. YEAH. HAHA.