lol
the fact that i've had a choice to do most everything i've ever done is a damn comforting feeling.
it's also comforting to know there are things i've turned down that i could have had easily, had i wanted them badly enough.
basically, options = comforting, in my little world.
if i get sad, i just think about things i can do. i could yell at whoever i want. i could quit my job. i could leave for some random little town, and never, ever, ever come back.
i mean, i wouldn't. but i'm absolutely capable of these things.
that being said, this place and these people have been an option i've chosen for entirely too long. you can only learn so much from a bunch of hateful little kids trapped in adult bodies with major security issues (or lack thereof).
i don't belong there.
i may have at one point, but i don't now; and i might now if i'd done things a little differently, but i'm glad i didn't.
lol.
it's also comforting to know there are things i've turned down that i could have had easily, had i wanted them badly enough.
basically, options = comforting, in my little world.
if i get sad, i just think about things i can do. i could yell at whoever i want. i could quit my job. i could leave for some random little town, and never, ever, ever come back.
i mean, i wouldn't. but i'm absolutely capable of these things.
that being said, this place and these people have been an option i've chosen for entirely too long. you can only learn so much from a bunch of hateful little kids trapped in adult bodies with major security issues (or lack thereof).
i don't belong there.
i may have at one point, but i don't now; and i might now if i'd done things a little differently, but i'm glad i didn't.
lol.