Letter to an Ex

[waxwoman]

what if...

we could have been bigger than we were?

what if we should have been more than it was...

What if this wasn't the last time that we met...

What if we still may be more than we know?

What if we never knew our wrong from our right?

The sea of what if's will never end

We can just hope we make more better decisions

but you, you made a choice based on things I don't know

And you showed me a side of you that doesn't allow for me to understand your choice.

So what if you're wrong, and what if I'm right?
It doesn't matter anyway. It's over.

That's why it's been so hard for me to talk to you again.

Because what if I'm not over it...
You are not the man I hoped you'd be...

You are not the man I want anyway..

But still you are the only person that was a part of my soul in a way I've never been able to describe.

You were not always good but it didn't matter...

and now, i've stepped away and I know that what we had was not who I am..

still I want you inside of me.

Always.

And for this reason alone I can't leave your memory behind.

so please stop calling.