Update
What do I say? Since my last post not much have changed. I am getting in to golf, Kevin and I drink all the time. Erin's friends have become my friends. I think a women can tell if you are sad and have some kind of sadness it is a motherly instinct. Or just nice people. Numb is a funny feeling easy to hide and a little peaceful. People suck, I once saw the good in everyone, but now I see.... I dont know. I dont like that. I do not know sleep with out drinking. Will this pass? I have tried to be happy but I just dont care. I am still fun and will play always but my hearts not in it anymore. Oh well.