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Well its been a while since I've updated my LiveJournal - What better time than now I suppose... I doubt anyone will read it, except Courtney perhaps.. but things have changed in my life and I felt like writing about it.
There has been a lot that has happened in the past year, but the big issue that is dominating my thoughts at the moment is Nina. We broke up yesterday. I can't say I was very happy about it and not very happy about it now come to think of it. I realize this is all new and that this horrible feeling will eventually pass.. but for now its here. I don't really have anyone to talk with about this as my best friend is Nina's cousin and the person I've talked with and gotten closest with in the past year is Nina. Furthermore, I work 3rd shift which somewhat limits my social life.. not that I had much of one before, but at least I could get out when I wanted. There aren't a lot of people that are too keen on hanging out with me at 7am.
Anyway.. so Nina broke up with me yesterday. I must say I was just numb afterward. I had been drinking most of the morning. My brother had some sort of party here all day so I didn't sleep well.. Work wasn't so much fun as I had woken up, sobered up and, the reality had sunk in.
I can't really blame Nina for breaking it off. She does live in Austria at the moment.. who knows where she'll decided to go next. She doesn't like the U.S... though she seemed to have a good time when she was here. But anyway, its a lot to expect to keep up the long-distance thing - love doesn't conquer all apparently. I was content for the moment but apparently she wasn't. Like I said.. I can't blame her.. Though we did go into the relationship knowing the situation. She has an entire life and whole other world that doesn't involve me in any way and probably never could.
It's difficult to lose someone you care so deeply about. This has pretty much torn my heart out.
Nina is a wonderful person - I love her and I will miss being close to her for a long time.
I'm not sure if I have anything else to say about this. I just feel lost and alone... whatever.. doesn't matter I suppose.
There has been a lot that has happened in the past year, but the big issue that is dominating my thoughts at the moment is Nina. We broke up yesterday. I can't say I was very happy about it and not very happy about it now come to think of it. I realize this is all new and that this horrible feeling will eventually pass.. but for now its here. I don't really have anyone to talk with about this as my best friend is Nina's cousin and the person I've talked with and gotten closest with in the past year is Nina. Furthermore, I work 3rd shift which somewhat limits my social life.. not that I had much of one before, but at least I could get out when I wanted. There aren't a lot of people that are too keen on hanging out with me at 7am.
Anyway.. so Nina broke up with me yesterday. I must say I was just numb afterward. I had been drinking most of the morning. My brother had some sort of party here all day so I didn't sleep well.. Work wasn't so much fun as I had woken up, sobered up and, the reality had sunk in.
I can't really blame Nina for breaking it off. She does live in Austria at the moment.. who knows where she'll decided to go next. She doesn't like the U.S... though she seemed to have a good time when she was here. But anyway, its a lot to expect to keep up the long-distance thing - love doesn't conquer all apparently. I was content for the moment but apparently she wasn't. Like I said.. I can't blame her.. Though we did go into the relationship knowing the situation. She has an entire life and whole other world that doesn't involve me in any way and probably never could.
It's difficult to lose someone you care so deeply about. This has pretty much torn my heart out.
Nina is a wonderful person - I love her and I will miss being close to her for a long time.
I'm not sure if I have anything else to say about this. I just feel lost and alone... whatever.. doesn't matter I suppose.