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i've been wondering lately if I ought to have taken that job last may, managing that independent children's toy/bookstore. yes, i'd signed up for birthright, but I could have cancelled. Yes, I'd signed up to volunteer on a six week dig, but I could have cancelled.
the main reason I didn't was the sheer forcefulness and disdain my mother took to the news. she couldn't stand the idea of my working as a store manager, talked up about where were my intellectual dreams and did I know about the pink collar ghetto (still not sure exactly what she meant there), and i figured i should listen and yes, i had bigger more intellectual dreams.
Cut to now, just about a year later, with very little to show. at least, if I'd taken the position, I'd now have money in the bank and a wider range of marketable skills in terms of buying, budgeting, running things. Lately I've been thinking that that, right there, was a huge mistake. A full time job. and I turned it down.
I feel so rudderless.
the main reason I didn't was the sheer forcefulness and disdain my mother took to the news. she couldn't stand the idea of my working as a store manager, talked up about where were my intellectual dreams and did I know about the pink collar ghetto (still not sure exactly what she meant there), and i figured i should listen and yes, i had bigger more intellectual dreams.
Cut to now, just about a year later, with very little to show. at least, if I'd taken the position, I'd now have money in the bank and a wider range of marketable skills in terms of buying, budgeting, running things. Lately I've been thinking that that, right there, was a huge mistake. A full time job. and I turned it down.
I feel so rudderless.