I'm still alive!
So, to anyone who reads this, I'm still alive, I swear! I've just gone through hell and back and am kind of still in a daze about it. O_O
OKAY! Let's start off with a general idea of what in fuck's sake I've been up to.
1. I left Wawa and Bethlehem, and moved in to another house with Steve and some friends. (FUCK WAWA!)
2. My dad died.
He bought me my wedding dress on a Saturday, we spent Father's Day together the next day, and that was the last time I saw him alive. Apparently he'd had a diabetes-related heart attack a few days later. I couldn't get a ride to his house, so I sent the police there after I couldn't get ahold of him all week, and they found him dead in his bedroom. I tried to notify my mom, but she refused to talk to me. I notified everyone else, went to the morgue the next day to see him and get his things, and then my aunt and I planned his funeral and cleaned out his apartment. I also managed to get Joe home early from Qatar on emergency leave. If he wasn't there when all of this happened, I would have died. I'm not kidding. My mom and I wound up in a fight a few days after he died, and she blames me for it and says she hates me. Well, whatever. That's fine.She and I haven't spoken since, and I still haven't had the chance to properly grieve him.
3. Joe and I had our wedding at his parents' house in Arizona (which is a beautiful state, btw). It was perfect. Steve walked me down the aisle and gave me away. Joe's vows were priceless. They were very sweet and heartfelt, and then he promised to protect me from "zombies, vampires, werewolves, and sentient robots looking for reasons of their own existence". I vowed to protect him when the zombie apocalypse comes. :)
4. I'm hopefully moving to Japan in 2 weeks. It all depends on my medical clearance. The docs here said my health is fine, it just needs to be maintained with medication, and I should see a nuerologist and rhuematologist quarterly. Normally, that'd be fine. Only Okinawa may not have a rhuematologist, and so they might not clear me. And if they don't, Joe has to try to cancel his orders. And if he can't, then he still has to go to Okinawa and I still have to stay here. I can barely make it through the 5-7 months he's gone on deployment. 3 years without him will kill me, no lie.
So, yeah. I'm stressed, but hanging in there. :-/