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holy crap he was right. i knew it at the time but i didnt even think about it completely. it was totally for attention. i know the exact feeling. hoping that someone will find what you are "hiding" so that something (whatever that something might be) will happen. it is so easy for them to see if even a little something changes. you pray that they wont and hope to god that they will. see everything. i cant believe how many times that has happened to me. it did not even hit me full force until now. wow. i think watching myself scratch my arm in the shower and wondering about my motives, and, once again, finding these or being at a loss, i completely saw it.
it makes sense. but god is it stupid.
it makes sense. but god is it stupid.