Fueling the fires within
Ever felt like the world you coincide with is spinning too fast to keep up?
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I'm going to move, finally...
Doesn't it bite to be unofficial with someone but to love them with everything that you are made of? Every fiber in your being just burns for that one person, in this case, Miguel. He's the only person I've ever been able to tell "I love you," and not feel like I'm having to put on a mask, he makes me open. With him, I feel free, and now I'm making one of the biggest, longest steps of my life. I'm going to be there, to be with him.
You know every fire dies, but I really don't want to believe that with this situation. I don't want the fire to go out, no stomping on this one. I just wish I had a way to show, to prove, to help myself to be everything he wants for me to be with him. I'm changing, as people do that, they change. I'm morphing for the best, not just for him, for myself. I need what he gives me, and that's confidence, love, and understanding. I just question, why couldn't it have come sooner? Why couldn't I find this peace and tranquility before? I'm so content and unbelievabley happy to know him now, but why not before then? Why...?
I know I shouldn't question things, but I'm human, it's natural...things happen for a reason. ALL THINGS happen for a reason, and I feel like, at this point in my life at least, he is my reason. He's the one I'm in love with and I don't foresee that changing, I just hope it never changes on his end either.
Happy 19th birthday to me....call in 10 years and see where I am...see the changes I'd have made...
UPDATES:
I'm going to move, finally...
Doesn't it bite to be unofficial with someone but to love them with everything that you are made of? Every fiber in your being just burns for that one person, in this case, Miguel. He's the only person I've ever been able to tell "I love you," and not feel like I'm having to put on a mask, he makes me open. With him, I feel free, and now I'm making one of the biggest, longest steps of my life. I'm going to be there, to be with him.
You know every fire dies, but I really don't want to believe that with this situation. I don't want the fire to go out, no stomping on this one. I just wish I had a way to show, to prove, to help myself to be everything he wants for me to be with him. I'm changing, as people do that, they change. I'm morphing for the best, not just for him, for myself. I need what he gives me, and that's confidence, love, and understanding. I just question, why couldn't it have come sooner? Why couldn't I find this peace and tranquility before? I'm so content and unbelievabley happy to know him now, but why not before then? Why...?
I know I shouldn't question things, but I'm human, it's natural...things happen for a reason. ALL THINGS happen for a reason, and I feel like, at this point in my life at least, he is my reason. He's the one I'm in love with and I don't foresee that changing, I just hope it never changes on his end either.
Happy 19th birthday to me....call in 10 years and see where I am...see the changes I'd have made...