[050] - [Voice]

[wavesoakedlegs]

[Mitsuhide sounds incredibly thoughtful today. There is good reason for that, which is revealed almost immediately.]I have now been in Vatheon for a year... or, rather, somewhat more than a year. The exact day of that anniversary passed by without me even realising it. I confess I was somewhat occupied with other matters, at the time. Better late

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[wavesoakedlegs]

It is the same, Gracia. [His tone has become gentle again now, but that particular sentence is said very firmly as well.] You should be treated with the same kindness that you show towards other people. Don't ever forget that. Remember; you are my precious daughter, a treasure beyond price. Your pain is my own.

[That was by far the most important thing she needed to hear. With it said, however, it was now time to tackle her questions about pleasure.]

[Mitsuhide had tried hard to be a good, loving father since first meeting Gracia, but that didn't change the fact that certain things made him feel extremely unsteady. This was one such thing. It wasn't just that he was embarassed; he honestly had little idea of where to start and what things he needed to say, even after the short time he'd had to think about it.]

Well, then...

[...]

I should tell you first that every person will find pleasure in different things. I can give you general advice, my girl, and there are certain things that most enjoy, but only you can determine specifically what kind of touch would make you feel good. Do you understand?

[kagayakashi]

[ Gracia's expression softened considerably, after hearing Mitsuhide's reply. They hit close to home; a careful hand moved towards the small outline of a necklace, hidden underneath her shirt. ]

My pain...is your own?

[ She remained in contemplative silence, and swallowed his advice like a bitter pill. While she understood the meaning, she couldn't truly imagine a situation wherein she'd prioritize her own safety against that of her father's. Nevertheless, when she spoke again, her tone was as gentle as Mitsuhide's. ]

What kind of general advice? I think I understand it a bit, but I don't know how to...know what makes me feel good.

[wavesoakedlegs]

[She didn't get it.]

[Mitsuhide sighs, inwardly. He was really hoping he wouldn't have to explicitly say it, that she'd understand from his hint, but apparently that is not going to happen.]

Gracia. Have you never...

[Breathe, Mitsuhide. Breathe]

Have you never... touched yourself?

[kagayakashi]

[ Gracia blinks. ]

I have! See, watch!

[ She stares at her father's face as she raises a palm and slaps it to her chest. She raises it again and touches her cheek. And then her elbow. And then her ear. ]

[ ...yes. Technically, she is touching herself...? ]

[wavesoakedlegs]

Not like that, Gracia.

[ASDFGHJKL why do you make him do this, bb girl. ;;]

I mean when you touch yourself in order to... pleasure yourself.

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[kagayakashi]

[ SHE MAKES HIM DO THESE THINGS BECAUSE LIFE. ]

[ Oh. Gracia's eyes are wide, and she takes one step back in embarrassment. ]

I didn't even know you could do that...

i finally get to use this icon lmao

[kagayakashi]

[ Gracia regains her composure - or at least, some of it - and responds better. Or not. ]

How do you do that, father?

[wavesoakedlegs]

You use your hands... your fingers.

[Mitsuhide's face us quite a picture now. It is going to be hard to even look Gracia in the eyes, after this.]

Down there. You think about things... you find attractive...

[ASDFGHJKL]

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[kagayakashi]

[ Hands and fingers...? Gracia stops and looks at them - her hands, her fingers, trying to imagine what he's saying... ]

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[kagayakashi]

[ 0___0

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and then it hits her how it's all connected. The fingers and the hands and the touching down there -- ]

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[kagayakashi]

[ ASKLGHLKSDGHDSKLFHJKDS;FH

ADLKFHJLDASKHFJSDFH

LKADFHLDKSFH

Her voice just gained like two pitches. ]

Father!

4/5

[kagayakashi]

[ She's just as flustered as Mitsuhide is, and gosh, her eyes have been OPENED. So that's what they mean when they say they -- and and and this is how you know what you want down there -- ]

What - what kind of things I find attractive? Ahh, the sky and the sea...?

[ She's sort of panicking. Whoooa. WHAT IS LIFE ALL OF A SUDDEN. ]

5/5

[kagayakashi]

[ She's tightly gripping at her skirt. TIGHTLY GRIPPING, SO TIGHT IT MIGHT PROBABLY RIP. ]

. . . d-do you and Motochika do those things? That's why you both enjoy it when you love each other?

[wavesoakedlegs]

No. As in what you find attractive in other people-

[He stops mid sentence, because. Did she seriously just ask that question? Oh my dear heavens! Mitsuhide's embarassed flush grows deeper in an instant.]

W-Well...

[Having to use examples from your own sex life in order to guide your daughter: EVERY FATHER'S WORST NIGHTMARE.]

I have done. We have done. I mean... yes, to a degree. It's the not the only reason... he does things that... and I...

[BLUE SCREEN OF DEATH, IMMINENT.]

Do you... do you understand what I meant, now?

[kagayakashi]

[ A couple of unique faces flash in Gracia's mind for a time - some old friends, and some friends she's gotten to know in Vatheon. She found all of their traits attractive, in a sense that it was the reason she was so drawn to them in the first place. Was that what he meant?

She shakes her head, to try and calm down. Gracia felt her cheeks with the back of her hands - they were so warm! ]

[ She doesn't follow his stutter, but she does remain quiet for a time, in an attempt to figure out what she's feeling and how she's ever going to accept what must be done. After a while, however, she couldn't resist not speaking anymore. ]

...I think I do. Haaa, this is too embarrassing! [ She sighs and takes deep breaths. ] After I figure out what I...like, I have to go tell Tadaoki? [ She let the name slip, but she barely notices. How could anyone be so strict about titles and formality when discussing something as intimate as sex? ]

[wavesoakedlegs]

Yes. Embarassing... you are certainly right about that.

[At least she didn't ask for more examples. Mitsuhide takes another deep breath to steady himself, and pauses at the mention of Tadaoki. As in Hosokawa Tadaoki? That was her husband? Tadaoki had fought at Yamazaki against Mitsuhide's forces...]

[That bit of information is filed away for later, because now is really not the time to find out more about that situation. There is enough to deal with as it is.]

Only you can decide what to do with that information.

[If he was as selfish a lover as she said, it might be in vain... but if she learned to assert herself, to stand up to him, then perhaps in the future it would be okay. Mitsuhide hopes so; the thought of her hurting is painful to him.]

But it will... definitely help.

[He hadn't even given her general advice yet. SO EMBARASSING.]