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[waveattheshore]

change
is really hard
it hurts
it rips and tears
it stings like a bee
but it is like water
i need it to survive
how do i prepare for this?
equip myself for leaving this
leaving this city
my home
i don't know if i will make it
if i am strong enough
but how does one ever know
if they are ready, if they are strong
i am leaving next year
for nine monthes
everything i love
everyone i need
will be absent from my life
i dont know what will happen
who i will meet
what i will see
or the person i will become
i am really scared
so much it shortens my breath and makes butterflies dance in my gut
i know that it will be beautiful
but it is hard to trust something that is so different from what i know
from what i love...