Is it can be player emo tiem now?
I don't know what it was, exactly, that brought this on, but it struck me today how few non-canon friends (or, hell, enemies, or just... people they've talked to more than once and have some kind of opinion about) my characters have, and when I really thought about it, it kind of snowballed into this mass of player emo and I wanted to get it out instead of letting it fester so. Here I am. This may not be the most coherent thing ever because it is three in the morning and my head hurts, but here goes anyway.
So here's the thing: I basically fail at threading with any given character more than once. I don't know what the problem is, exactly -- probably some combination of lack of activity and fear of jumping with a side of reluctance to post -- but it's definitely there. Hanajima, after more than two years, has not a single meaningful non-canon relationship. It's not that she had some and then the people left -- she just has none. She had a few people that were maybe kind of friends, but she hasn't talked to any of them in forever, because, you know. I fail. Hyatt had one friend not from her canon, but he left, so she has zero now too. Hisui actually has a number of non-canon relationships, but every single one was sort of transferred over from Kohaku -- she doesn't have a single friend (or enemy) that she's made on her own. And she doesn't even thread with those people very much (at least, not lately). Momoko has no real relationships either -- she had a few potential ones at first, but again I haven't threaded with any of the people lately. And Maria... well, Maria's got her thing with Kino where I'm not sure they can be called friends, but they occasionally have long semi-philosophical discussions about war and things or are forced to participate in embarrassing soap operas, either way... anyway, I'm happy with that, but I think Kino's the only one Maria's threaded with more than once in the three months she's been here.
So... yeah. I'm really not happy with all this, on the whole. I mean, I know you can't force camp relationships and whatnot and going into things going "THIS WILL BE MEANINGFUL, DAMMIT" doesn't work, but... well, there will be times where one of my characters threads with another character and I go "wow that was really awesome, [character] should really talk to them again sometime," and... I don't. I fail at following through. And now that I write it all out, it seems terribly obvious that the solution is to get over my fear of jumping (and posting) and go talk to these people instead of waiting for them to come to me, but I just... I don't know.
And... I'm kind of falling asleep and losing my train of thought, so I'll just end this here. In conclusion: I suck. Listen to me whine about how much I suck. Whine moan angst emo sadface etc.
So here's the thing: I basically fail at threading with any given character more than once. I don't know what the problem is, exactly -- probably some combination of lack of activity and fear of jumping with a side of reluctance to post -- but it's definitely there. Hanajima, after more than two years, has not a single meaningful non-canon relationship. It's not that she had some and then the people left -- she just has none. She had a few people that were maybe kind of friends, but she hasn't talked to any of them in forever, because, you know. I fail. Hyatt had one friend not from her canon, but he left, so she has zero now too. Hisui actually has a number of non-canon relationships, but every single one was sort of transferred over from Kohaku -- she doesn't have a single friend (or enemy) that she's made on her own. And she doesn't even thread with those people very much (at least, not lately). Momoko has no real relationships either -- she had a few potential ones at first, but again I haven't threaded with any of the people lately. And Maria... well, Maria's got her thing with Kino where I'm not sure they can be called friends, but they occasionally have long semi-philosophical discussions about war and things or are forced to participate in embarrassing soap operas, either way... anyway, I'm happy with that, but I think Kino's the only one Maria's threaded with more than once in the three months she's been here.
So... yeah. I'm really not happy with all this, on the whole. I mean, I know you can't force camp relationships and whatnot and going into things going "THIS WILL BE MEANINGFUL, DAMMIT" doesn't work, but... well, there will be times where one of my characters threads with another character and I go "wow that was really awesome, [character] should really talk to them again sometime," and... I don't. I fail at following through. And now that I write it all out, it seems terribly obvious that the solution is to get over my fear of jumping (and posting) and go talk to these people instead of waiting for them to come to me, but I just... I don't know.
And... I'm kind of falling asleep and losing my train of thought, so I'll just end this here. In conclusion: I suck. Listen to me whine about how much I suck. Whine moan angst emo sadface etc.