ha HA!
so i guess i'm eating pizza right now and it's 11:46
hmm
i'm PRETTY healthy.
but anyway. i'm going to the prom with Ross i guess.
and Russ (such similar names) told me that he had been planning on asking me tonight.
but then found out iw as going with Ross.
and i kind of got upset.
i really wanted to be asked, and i did the asking with Ross.
and i was planning on asking Russ in the first place.
and it's just really confusing when somoene is like
yeah i was going to ask you
and you're like...uh..wow i was going to ask you too.
but then you're already going with someone else
who hadn't even planned on asking you.
i would have liked to have gone with a mutual date is the bottom line.
that's long and ridiculous about such a silly thing but, i had a lot of thoughts about the situation so i wanted to get them all down so i can feel like the matter is finalized and then will stop thinking about it. now i'm going to type a lot about another silly matter that i for some reason have a LOT of thoughts about and i need to get them down. get ready
the bottom line is i'm going with Ross
and i like Ross i think.
i don't think a relationship between us would necessarily work out, though.
i don't even know if i'd want it to.
i never thought i liked Ross, but then i realized that every girlfriend he's had, i'm extremely jealous and can't wait until they break up so i can ask him out.
and then they break up
and i'm not jealous. so i don't ask him out. etc.
so now i'm confused. does that mean i like him?
i completely don't know.maybe...
if we dated....well, we're going to college, i have my own apt
so i think, that would be fun. like a REAL relationship. like a real stay over eachothers place do real things together not a high school clingy relationship.
but Ross is very childish in many ways. in some ways that's very good and cute, in others it seems like it could be a problem.
he's living at home next year. so the whole stay over eachothers place won't work out at all.
going places will be severely restricted too. time of arrival departure, place, activities, and accompaniment will have to be given to his mom for every hour of every day, and he'll probably be home every night by 11.
i just wish he had more freedom. then i think he would grow up a little in a couple of ways.
i dont know why i think about all this.
i guess i must kind of like him, becuase i wish that he were moving on campus so all the things i want from a relationship would work with him
but i really dont think i'll have the patience to work around his...rules.
so i want to give him a chance, but i would hate having to break up with him if i just couldn't do it.
i dont know if this is all EXTREMELY bitchy. i dont mean it to be.
i just will be dissapointed if i expect something out of a relationship, with him, that is for the most part impossible.
and i dont even know if i like him in that sense to begin with.
he's so goofy that it's cute, but sometimes i won't want to be goofy. sometimes i'll want to just sit around and read or cook dinner or something.
i'll just want to be quiet and lazy.
which i dont think he ever is.
i guess this is what my plan of action is
if he asks me out, i'll either ask him to let me think it over (some more), or say yes and just see how it works out. and if i don't think it's working i'll just have to tell him.
and i'm sure he won't care. Ross never get's too upset about ANYTHING. he just shrugs everything off.
so i guess that was my second rampage. much longer than the first.
hmm
i'm PRETTY healthy.
but anyway. i'm going to the prom with Ross i guess.
and Russ (such similar names) told me that he had been planning on asking me tonight.
but then found out iw as going with Ross.
and i kind of got upset.
i really wanted to be asked, and i did the asking with Ross.
and i was planning on asking Russ in the first place.
and it's just really confusing when somoene is like
yeah i was going to ask you
and you're like...uh..wow i was going to ask you too.
but then you're already going with someone else
who hadn't even planned on asking you.
i would have liked to have gone with a mutual date is the bottom line.
that's long and ridiculous about such a silly thing but, i had a lot of thoughts about the situation so i wanted to get them all down so i can feel like the matter is finalized and then will stop thinking about it. now i'm going to type a lot about another silly matter that i for some reason have a LOT of thoughts about and i need to get them down. get ready
the bottom line is i'm going with Ross
and i like Ross i think.
i don't think a relationship between us would necessarily work out, though.
i don't even know if i'd want it to.
i never thought i liked Ross, but then i realized that every girlfriend he's had, i'm extremely jealous and can't wait until they break up so i can ask him out.
and then they break up
and i'm not jealous. so i don't ask him out. etc.
so now i'm confused. does that mean i like him?
i completely don't know.maybe...
if we dated....well, we're going to college, i have my own apt
so i think, that would be fun. like a REAL relationship. like a real stay over eachothers place do real things together not a high school clingy relationship.
but Ross is very childish in many ways. in some ways that's very good and cute, in others it seems like it could be a problem.
he's living at home next year. so the whole stay over eachothers place won't work out at all.
going places will be severely restricted too. time of arrival departure, place, activities, and accompaniment will have to be given to his mom for every hour of every day, and he'll probably be home every night by 11.
i just wish he had more freedom. then i think he would grow up a little in a couple of ways.
i dont know why i think about all this.
i guess i must kind of like him, becuase i wish that he were moving on campus so all the things i want from a relationship would work with him
but i really dont think i'll have the patience to work around his...rules.
so i want to give him a chance, but i would hate having to break up with him if i just couldn't do it.
i dont know if this is all EXTREMELY bitchy. i dont mean it to be.
i just will be dissapointed if i expect something out of a relationship, with him, that is for the most part impossible.
and i dont even know if i like him in that sense to begin with.
he's so goofy that it's cute, but sometimes i won't want to be goofy. sometimes i'll want to just sit around and read or cook dinner or something.
i'll just want to be quiet and lazy.
which i dont think he ever is.
i guess this is what my plan of action is
if he asks me out, i'll either ask him to let me think it over (some more), or say yes and just see how it works out. and if i don't think it's working i'll just have to tell him.
and i'm sure he won't care. Ross never get's too upset about ANYTHING. he just shrugs everything off.
so i guess that was my second rampage. much longer than the first.