Life can be really fucked
Hey everyone,
Today was one really messed up day....first of all all day i woke up and have had a horrible pain in both my legs all day from crouching for 4 hours during my amzing ady of paintball. Second, i have been having problems with one of my best friends Steff. She won't tell me something or she is trying to think of a good way of telling me something that she hasn't told me about in the past 2 years (when it started) don't get me wrong it isn't nething life threstining or nething horrible that could ruin our friendship it is just something relating between us and it is bugging me and i can't stop thinking about it. I really enjoy being around Steff, I mean i like talking to her and i like doing stuff with her, but this past weekend i discovered a steff that i had never expected to ever see, at first i didn't really want it to be true, i mean i actually went into denial, it was crazy, but now that i have been hearing about it more from her and thinking about it it is apparent to me that unfortunatly althought i might not want it to be but it it real, it is hard for me to belive it but i know that i have to now, I just hope that our friendship doesn't suffer from it. Steff is one of my bestest friends in the whole world, and i don't want to loose that......ever...
Well, i should probablly stop whining about something i can never change, *ugh* But i want to change i so BAD...i want to just rtewind and make it go back to the way it was before, but i know i can't. it is horrible for me and my thinking prosses. To think about the girl you like in a way u don't want to think about her. It is really bugging me. Damn life is fucked sometimes. I hate some of life's cercumstances.
I hope i feel better ab out this in the morning and that some light will be shead on this subject too.
Well to everyone who reads this.....Good Night.
Today was one really messed up day....first of all all day i woke up and have had a horrible pain in both my legs all day from crouching for 4 hours during my amzing ady of paintball. Second, i have been having problems with one of my best friends Steff. She won't tell me something or she is trying to think of a good way of telling me something that she hasn't told me about in the past 2 years (when it started) don't get me wrong it isn't nething life threstining or nething horrible that could ruin our friendship it is just something relating between us and it is bugging me and i can't stop thinking about it. I really enjoy being around Steff, I mean i like talking to her and i like doing stuff with her, but this past weekend i discovered a steff that i had never expected to ever see, at first i didn't really want it to be true, i mean i actually went into denial, it was crazy, but now that i have been hearing about it more from her and thinking about it it is apparent to me that unfortunatly althought i might not want it to be but it it real, it is hard for me to belive it but i know that i have to now, I just hope that our friendship doesn't suffer from it. Steff is one of my bestest friends in the whole world, and i don't want to loose that......ever...
Well, i should probablly stop whining about something i can never change, *ugh* But i want to change i so BAD...i want to just rtewind and make it go back to the way it was before, but i know i can't. it is horrible for me and my thinking prosses. To think about the girl you like in a way u don't want to think about her. It is really bugging me. Damn life is fucked sometimes. I hate some of life's cercumstances.
I hope i feel better ab out this in the morning and that some light will be shead on this subject too.
Well to everyone who reads this.....Good Night.