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i cant stand my life i wish i was in a party in a warehouse, with everybody loving each other and feeling the way i do. i dont think my life is gonna add up to anything i had the chance to be in a porn movie this morning. 80 dollars an hour. makes me think. do i want other people ruling my life forever?like my father. he says i cant wear pants and jewlery. i cant swear, i cant smoke i cant have sex.. i want to do all these things.why cant i just do what i want? my friend,jocylyn says im wipped.i dont think im wipped. well i wouldnt would i?i cant think right now. i was so happy about 2 hours ago.im bipolar.i want to get laid. i want my life back. i love you.