it was...
free expression -- no categories, no heroes, and anyone who has something to say should be able to take the stage and do their shit, no big deal.
i have to start by saying that i really don't have anything to say here.
i could go on and on explaining something to you, imaginary stalker of mine, and then totally forget what my point was. the only thing that's relevant to me at this point is my willingness to give up everything that's been holding me back, and live for what's purposeful. i've been quieting myself, i've been pasting on a smile for absolute strangers, taking their bullshit, every single one of them. and everyone around me keeps telling me to take it until i can find something else, when they know fucking well that it's going to be the same shit i had to deal with before.
i have these dreams that don't seem to get me anywhere, then again i wait around too much, expecting miracles to seep from the clouds and drench me in hot bubbling success sauce. all i can do is dream, and live in and through it, because even if i got what i wanted it wouldn't be what i thought it was. i would just be experiencing a new degree of shittyness.
sometimes i just want to jump in the lake and drown, i feel like alot would be solved if it just didn't have to be dealt with. and it gets really fucking old when people keep telling you to find that "inner motivated you." i have yet to find this motivated version of myself helpful. i get to a point, but never really feel any progression, it's just the old me visiting the old places with the same old feelings.
i can't wait forever, man.
i have to start by saying that i really don't have anything to say here.
i could go on and on explaining something to you, imaginary stalker of mine, and then totally forget what my point was. the only thing that's relevant to me at this point is my willingness to give up everything that's been holding me back, and live for what's purposeful. i've been quieting myself, i've been pasting on a smile for absolute strangers, taking their bullshit, every single one of them. and everyone around me keeps telling me to take it until i can find something else, when they know fucking well that it's going to be the same shit i had to deal with before.
i have these dreams that don't seem to get me anywhere, then again i wait around too much, expecting miracles to seep from the clouds and drench me in hot bubbling success sauce. all i can do is dream, and live in and through it, because even if i got what i wanted it wouldn't be what i thought it was. i would just be experiencing a new degree of shittyness.
sometimes i just want to jump in the lake and drown, i feel like alot would be solved if it just didn't have to be dealt with. and it gets really fucking old when people keep telling you to find that "inner motivated you." i have yet to find this motivated version of myself helpful. i get to a point, but never really feel any progression, it's just the old me visiting the old places with the same old feelings.
i can't wait forever, man.