Risk
If I walk away from this job it's like walking away from everything I've worked for. Financial security, well-defined career path and health insurance. It's walking away from a company where I've earned respect and would probably never get laid off or fired. I'd be walking away from $22 an hour to sit here and do whatever I want. Logically, it's totally nuts. Why would I do that? But if I stay here I will slowly rot away. I can feel it already. My brain and heart are getting smaller. But I have no plan, and if I walk away I walk into the abyss of the Unknown. I've always had a plan in my life. Almost always some sort of direction. If I do this all I will have is hope and the confidence in myself that I can do better. Somewhere deep inside I know I can do better, but it's hard to hold onto that feeling. Fear in insecurity are strong emotions.