Jul 11, 2007 00:45
I really want to jump ahead to August 6th and Enjoy the 8 days after it, and then skip about the next 3 years of my life.
I wish I hadn't gone to the lanes tonight, then I wouldn't have been told about the Grand Slam and Softball.. It's all becoming a reality again. .. And now I can't go to the games anymore.
It certainly doesn't seem fair, the way that I'm living my life. And I know it's my decision, I just wish there was somehing out there convincing me that in the end it's all worth it. That someday I'll wake up and realize everything happens for a reason and at some point in my life I made the right decision. Hopefully when this happens I'll be waking up next to someone who sees the same as I do. It's high time someone believed in me as much as I can believe in them.
Anyway it's been a long day and in 7 hours I must return to work for another long day, followed by yet another.. And then friday I'm going to do something I've always wanted. Swim across Teal Lake from Negauneee to Ishpeming.. So wish me luck