Arm down a little and mom settling down
Thanks for your good thoughts and vibes. It helps because it's easier to write this stuff. Saying it out loud makes it too real.
I feel less emo this morning as the swelling has gone down and the heat. Unfortunately with less swelling I can feel new lumps which are probably blood vessels that I didn't feel before. Damn.
C says he didn't give Little T aspirin on Sunday. One frigging day. It comforts him and makes me feel things are balanced by a hair.
I hope that he's bigger and stronger and won't need steroids this time and certainly not chemo.
Last night Special K was talking about Pokemon "involution" meaning evolution. Involution is the mysterious process by which the tumor starts shrinking again. I hope involution has started and its brief evolution or growth was just a day. That's never how it's worked. But then this tumor has never worked the way "it's supposed to". I've heard "it's not supposed to do that" so many times. Can't it work the way it's not supposed to and suddenly start involuting again with just going back to aspirin. You don't need steroids.
Little T understands much more this time. Far more than I probably know. He was extra snuggly this morning.
I just have to dump my fears and worries here and live in the present.
I feel less emo this morning as the swelling has gone down and the heat. Unfortunately with less swelling I can feel new lumps which are probably blood vessels that I didn't feel before. Damn.
C says he didn't give Little T aspirin on Sunday. One frigging day. It comforts him and makes me feel things are balanced by a hair.
I hope that he's bigger and stronger and won't need steroids this time and certainly not chemo.
Last night Special K was talking about Pokemon "involution" meaning evolution. Involution is the mysterious process by which the tumor starts shrinking again. I hope involution has started and its brief evolution or growth was just a day. That's never how it's worked. But then this tumor has never worked the way "it's supposed to". I've heard "it's not supposed to do that" so many times. Can't it work the way it's not supposed to and suddenly start involuting again with just going back to aspirin. You don't need steroids.
Little T understands much more this time. Far more than I probably know. He was extra snuggly this morning.
I just have to dump my fears and worries here and live in the present.